alright. i most definitely thought that today would bring my ‘year of gratitude’ to an untimely and premature end. i let jesus take the wheel before it even hit noon and from there on out the day was nothing short of a roller coaster of overwhelming emotion and physically painful anxiety.
but the silver lining made itself present in the form of a dear friend and mentor. she greeted me today with the gift of tea, but it was by simply being there when i needed so desperately to cry and talking over massive bags of chips together, that made my day infinitely better. her kind words and gentle hugs made me feel safe, and for someone with PTSD, finding that quality in a person is something you appreciate more than life itself. and something i will be eternally grateful for. i hope one day i will be even half the woman that she is.